step 1

So life begins to change , and change drstically, 2 years ago when i moved from my current position into this new project i thought that was a big change, i was taking on a project which was completely new based on a new technology, the worlds first network while my peers had huge experience in project management and my first as PM. My manager had 27 years or experience in this company, while i was not even 27 years of age even. It turned out well , it turned out good enough, it was not a smooth road but we managed.

today i take another step , the first to the truly drastic change in a long long time to happen.

step 1 , im here in isb now, wil be here for a week more for now , would be busy in handing over and taking over of the previous project i was in before this current one 2 years ago, but now i am going to take up place which was then held by my then manager.

so one week to get deep into all the tiny details of the project, injected to my system in a short span of 6 days, and this too including saturday and sunday, im on a so called leave from the other project and have an out of office ("OOO") on my emails for the customer, while i exhaust myself in this new one.

and in the morning i called driver at 7am so i can make it for 8am flight to isb, the dirver thought i am calling him at 8am, missed the flight due to my returned insomniac traits of the old , i cant seem to get any sleep, the only time im sleeping these days is after 5am in most cases by 7, so today i was awake till 7 , and i missed the flight still, came by road then, im sleepy, and hungry for some reason too

i need my sheesha , majlis here i come

farmaish

ok this goes here on hemlocks "farmaish"

for hemlock

chasing cars

if i lay here , if i just lay here

would you lie with me and just forget the world................

Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars

of HDDs

so a few weeks ago i was having harddisk crisis, my extrnal one got dropped, my laptops harddisk crashed and revived it using spinrite, incredible software that one . so far my laptops harddisk has crashed 3 times , 2 out of 3 were currpted sectors, thanks to spinrite its still working.

So finaly today the replacement harddisk for the lappy is here, now i need to reinstall windows and transfer all the data.

My external harddive would be back after a week more, just hope the data survives the trip.

and they just delivered this 60gb harddisk for my lappy, now i have to install everythingy on it. will do so in an hours time

and then

and she told me, she loves me in the middle of night and hung up when there was silence from my side.

i kept calling her and could not get through, for hours i dialed and she would not pick up, and finally she did, crying. in the long hours that followed we talked, about what this change would mean for our current relationship, how we would not let this tiny detail matter.

and few weeks later, i told her i loved her, again in the middle of night, sitting across to her. and again there were tears which were shed, late into the night the talk continued. we talked how this would mean change or everything, how hopeless it was for 'us', there was a path we were walking which we could walk for the time till our separate destinations take us away, that path we decided to walk hand in hand for as long as we can.

and the journey was beautiful, it was an existence in now and here, there was no future mentioned only the present lived. there were dreams and hopes but never were spoken aloud.
and the journey was over, there was a crossroad, there was a parting. some pieces inside were shattered, some memories were held closer than life. there was a healing time, in which mending was done, memories were let go. there was a reunion of sorts, the talking terms were reestablished. But there was a heartbeat that skipped on every encounter, nothing was spoken aloud.


and she told me, she loves someone else in the middle of night and hung up when there was silence from my side............

take that

i did it ,

ouch

so like, once upon a time there was an 80GB hardisk as my eternal drive, those small portable ones that you carry around in the laptop bag and put junk in whenever you lay your hands on somethingy.
So like few months ago that 80GB started making noises, paid no heed, and then one day finally it stopped responding, there lighted up an alarm in the brain that oh damn, DATA , all that years and years of DATA.
and like that 80GB was rushed to data recovery experts who kinda examined it and informed me that its was beyond repair , although data could be saved by opening it up and going sector by sector and its gonna cost like 15k.
so i decided to say goodbye to that data and went on to buy a new harddisk. decided to go for a branded one this time as to have more "reliability". Compared like a locally made 500GB to a 320GB of Westren Digital, and WD was like 2k more expensive.
The problem is , i have this thingy, that once i like somethingy i end up buying it sooner or later , so 320GB WD it was , with a sleek sesky look to it, 10 months warranty 24 month extended warranty.



so i kinda end up taking this beauty home. 320GB was a lot of space and i managed to just fill up like 60GB in the past one month.


it was a dark night, there was no sun to be found, it was more dark as the tube light was off, and there was an eery glow coming from the screen of the laptop and the harddisk was on the bedside table beside me and then as fate would have it , my cousin knocked it down the table and it crashed on his foot and then to the floor. Oh the horror, the HORROR , THE HORROR

and now the disk has stopped responding, its not being detected and like i called up warranty support and no ones picking up the call, but dropping does not get covered in warranty anyway.

Its a sad sad sad day...........

"we had joy we had fun we had the seasons in the sun................"