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on 31st May 2007 another shade on us all left us, another one who used to give unconditional love and prayers to us all , Phuppi Amma we will miss you

life

and it was just 3 days that i had burried my grandfather that i found myself again standing at an open grave and throwing shovels down to seperate another loved one from us forever

My Phuppi passed away on 25th, Jan 2007, May Allah bless her soul

she had sugar and heart problems and what not, atleast now her suffering is over, This is what she asked everyone to pray for "Pray that Allah ends my suffering" , and Allah listened to that pray.


Phuppo everyone misses you already

another loss

my grandfather passed away on 21st Januray 2007.

I could still feel his faint pulse as i held his hand, while others were trying to revive him, and then all of a sudden there was no pulse, his hand was still warm within mine when i had to make the first call to inform others of the loss.

Its never easy calling up someone and telling them what has happened, especially when its your mother or aunt miles away and you have to inform them that their father has left us for ever,

and then past 2 days have been a blur, so many ppl in the house, chaos, ppl crying and then the funeral itself , the time when you have to lay them in the grave and then they close it up and you just stand there and feel how utterly helpless a human being is.

After returning from the gravyard , i went to his empty room, and just sat there, and my eldest khala came and asked , "chorr aye" , and thats when i lost it, and i cried and i cried i dont know for how long ...

i will miss him, everyday when i go downstairs to leave for office , i will pass by his now empty room, everynight when i will come back, there wont be anyone still awake in his bed waiting for me to return, no one will call me to ask me where i was and when i would be coming back if i ever ran late at nights.

oh i will miss him.... i will

fragile life

An hour before 2005 is gone and 2006 comes in i recieve a call

The calling person is crying on the other end.. "Azhar bhai, they died, they both are dead....... "

A team of mine returning from late night activity along with the customers persons. My team was somewhere 25 mins behind the other car, they reached the main highway near Sahiwal and saw that there is Highway police present and seems like there has been an accident, they decided to look if there is anything they can do to help. Turns out its the other car in their small convoy of two. The driver and technician both died on spot.

For a lousy target which the customer wanted to achive in the parting year two of their persons now will never see another day , let alone the new year.

Just shows us that how fragile this whole thing is and how much overrated this life is...

Right now its 2 mins to new year, ppl are preparing to celebrate, i dont know even if the familes of those 2 know what has befallen them both, i only informed their manager, maybe their families are also preparing to celebrate and are trying to call them on their cells , to know when they will be home so they can celebrate the new year together

And here comes new year... wonder why aint i thrilled