Wednesday, November 10, 2010

huh ?

a lot of times nowadays im wondering whatever happened to mE ? i have totally lost all / any interest in my work ( if i ever had any to begin with that is ), still i go home late at night even later than what i used to go when the work load was brutal, my sheesha intake has increased , but alternatively my tv shows viewing has dramatically been cut short, i never did even finish heroes , left it in mid episode last year and never got around to complete it , nor do i feel inclided to doing so. am not in contact with my friends. Its like im slowly fadding away.
i dont remember any day in past 4 or 5 weeks where i have really worked in office , i have done all the tasks required or necesasry to do in the timeframe but the passion or spirit is not there , this is just a thing i need to do and thats it , pays the bills .
i started making a resume which i never completed, one day will get around to do that , started GMAT and even gave it once and had to give it again m, but so far dont feel like picking up the books again and do it. Im just living in right now, right here , no plans no nothing for whats to come.
even starting this post its taken me quite many days to get to this point , i dont feel like finishing it , nor i have any clue as to what would the finished post look like. I guess it would be poetic justice if i just leave it off in mid sentence and not even post it, but lets click this publish post button now before i get bored to even bother doing that....