and then

and then there was silence...........

lost i am

once there was respite from the struggle

a hope i had of peace and calm

illusions, visions, hallucinations

nothing was there in reality

sometimes i wish memories to fade

haunted i remain to a present of the past

a soul pricked while picking my shatered self

a wound i heal no one can tell

at nights alone i cry without sleep

the dream i dreamed i dream no more

leave me and let me be

i am but lost for now it seems

will find my path i just need my time

my future i'll build just wait and see

blabber

and im back to my routine , my normal routine which is anythingy but normal, after 3 weeks im sitting on my desk in my office. not moving around , not working from the other office, not in another city but back in lahore.

and im still tired , there are 1236 unread emails in my inbox, waiting for me to grace them but i like the saying of a guy i worked with last year, he said " If they want me to do somethingy important , they will mail again" , so im kinda working on his principles right now

im gonna work another day.................

pool

Ok so this be the pool and sheesha ,

the fun part being , you can breath while sitting in the water through a sheesha and enjoy quality time inside water while sucessfully deminishing your stamina

I think i would go to khi soon again , or not , lets see

stone deaf

and day before yesterday the temperature was 42 in khi, i was not looking forward to drop in khi plus had no plans for coming to khi when i left lhr on sunday. It was just 2 day trip , give a presentation on tuesday and return the same night or wed morning to lhr plan.
On monday i get call from my team in khi, asking me when i am planning to come ot khi, im like perhaps next week, soon ( like ive been saying past 3 months , soon). So the guy is like come on 11th and you can attend the motoalert mtv concert.
So i say i will think , and on wednesday morning i end up at isb airport to head out to khi.

Funny thingy is, i now know first hand why PIA was banned, like the plane takes off and i go deaf, and when we land i go deaffer. and through out the flight i keep trying to yawn to get my ears to open, im sure i must have been making interesting faces throughout the flight.

So i land and i get a call from the guy who was to pick me up, i pick up, tell him "lemme sms you" and closed the phone, he must have thought i was in some other call or somethingy. Truth be told, if the phone was not on vibrator i would not have been able to tell it was rining, and secondly all i can hear was this wind in my ears when i tilted my hear left and stone deaf when i kept it stright.

So conversing through texts i got picked up, checked in to the hotel, kept guessing what the guy at the reception was asking for , usually the sequence is " Visiting card, sign form, credit card , and thank you" im sure i walked off pretty arrogant snob in the guys view.

So after 3 hours of forced yawning and making strange faces, i was able to comprehend what others were saying when in 5 feet radius around me

The best thingy about Khi office is , like my departments office i.e , in the evening i can sit in the pool, have a cup of coffee beside and have a sheesha. I should come to khi more often i think

So by 9 we went to the otoalert concert, anoushe and faizan were the only ppl apart from the organizer crew at the time, time printed on cinvitation cards was 7, by 10:30 it started , first off an intro video was run of what motoalert is , and then a guy called ali khan sang 3 songs, aparently ive been out of touch with local music it seems, never heard the guy before & never heard of the guy as well. next came Haroon, he should NOT sing anymore, the guy sucked majorly by the time due to extremly high base my ears were opening up a bit.

So after 6 songs, ( i was informed that each person before the main item would do 3 songs only ), and dreadfully elongating our misery he finally left and the band for whom all the evening was planned came on stage. Strings. Strings were named brand ambassador for Motorola for 2007 and 2008 the very evening and then they stormed the show.

One word , AMAZING, Bilal also performed" Sar Kiey" as a dedication to MTV.
All and all we had fun in that performance afterwords food, finger fish was tasty, and then i headed out to marriot,

and now i know there is a huge speed breaker on sea view road which has no indication before hand , thus i should not go beyond 100, not good for the shocks of the car.

by 1 i was back in my hotel and when i was turning off the lights around 1:30 , a real yawn resulted in finaly having my ears work normally,

now i think i should ask my team to retell their issues once more.

status

im tired, very tired