resting in pain

had emergency surgery for non-reducible para umbilical hernia

that after a hectic italian holiday trip, guess wanted to get some rest after all.

noo

yes

another milestone

so there has been another milestone in my life. I am a proud father of beautiful baby girl.

Though dealing with Postpartum depression is harder than i had thought earlier. Everything is fine Alhamdilillah.

And it seems as if my work was also waiting for the moment i become a father t go on a tangent from peace towards hell

Anyway, i have been blessed, like i have been given a chance to absolve from all the mistakes i have made in life.

another week start

why is it so hard to find the books i want to read here in this country, its almost as no one else reads this stuff and im the only one who is looking for them, in stores and old book shops all over the city.

Its at times like these when i have a book with a first part and no third or fourth or then i have the third or fourth but no 1st when i kind of wish i can open up a book store , with a nice coffee shop inside ( wifi and all, no sheesha inside the shop but it can be presented outside or in a separate enclosure ).

For me it would purely be a fiction/sci-fi/ fantasy books only, it would be nice to have everything categorized and arranged in a nice manner . so many of these old book shops lack just this one item otherwise they have such nice collections but one cannot be expected to be able to go through them all to find what one needs.

in another news , yesterday being a sunday , i decided not to pick any work calls, got a call from my manager while i was out doing bbq at pirsohawa in the rain , did not return his call. So far havent heard back from him, this being mid of day monday, which is highly unlike him not to call every 2 or 3 hours if he aint in city.

Well, a bi of slow work today, lets see how the day progresses later

I do hate monday's still

Today

so like , i know i was suppose to work today, but kinda i am and have worked but still, not feeling upto the mark, There was suppose to be a meeting starting 10:30 in the morning but due to situation in Khi , my manager could not could not fly out form there , yet he is still talking about meeting today later , so i assume he is going to come somewhere on another flight and we still will need to go for a meeting , and i will still need to get this presentation done.

Today, i will work, hopefully

tomorrow

tomorrow i will work , dil laga key.

Honest

today

so we are back on Dhaka Standard time, Daylight Saving once more, welcome to the confused next few weeks if not months , there would once again be debates of the ral time vs the fake time and the pathans would once more out rightly refuse to change their clocks and move on Pathan Standard time.

Apart from that, i am feeling extremely lethargic today towards work, i have noooooooooooo mood of working. there is a conference call on going which i am suppose to be giving my ideas to others who are talking for past 30 mins but i dont feel like enlightening them that the topic they are discussing has already been completed by us last week.

in another news, a guy who was from my team, now left to go work in KSA, has risen to standup comedy spotlight , he is now doing shows with Ahmed Ahmed and Jeff Mirza, and he is quite funny from the clip i saw of his performance in Riyadh. Never knew he had the talent when he was in office.


in yet another news, my mind just went blank after attending the 3rd conference call, after that we have yet another call on the financial targets achived to date and forecasted ones, which i am totally not looking forward to. i better close this post and go try to get my mind on work

query

i dont know what is worse ,

a customer who knows no standards of project management
or
a manager who knows but does not follow them

tacking it back slowly VERY VERY slowly

so like past few months ive been kinda vanished from my usual life or from my life used to be , aint talking the change in life after marriage, i was / is a big change but still i had some of it going on for me on the old rate.

what im talking about is the work life, its been getting extremely tough the past 2 months specially. Its true the higher up you go the more harder it gets, i remember what i used to think when i was the field engineer traveling for work every day and even some nights and sometimes being in the field for over 2 weeks and thinking , man what an easy life my management has, just check email and make us do all the work.

7 years down the line, well i would gladly go back to not having all the responsibility, provided i get to keep the current salary though. Anyway, so point being now its much much much more to look after, its a whole new thinking hat im wearing and not much of appreciation as compared to the tension and tiredness. Funny how i mention tension, as im one of the guys who is known all around the company as having a completely chilled out relax attitude no matter how much it gets worse. I must admit i have been having a hard time cutting of work from routine life. I used to have such a nice ability to switch off work when i went out of office now things keep floating around in my mind.

Recently ive decided to take my life back from work. Have been catching up on all my tv series slowly. Have been reading the books i wanted to and even went book hunting on all old book shops of Islamabad, visited 8 of them and got around 8 books in total.

So now im going to take my life back from evil clutches of work. slowly ever so slowly

of eyes

so now i have a limited field of vision. There are semi transparent edges which im sure one gets used to the longer they wear the glasses.
Had been feeling the need to get my eyes tested for a long time turns out i was right. The first time the glasses came i could not see from the right eye it was all blurred , turns out the maker had changed the axis from 75 to 95 , for my benefit im sure. So since yesterday after getting it fixed i can see much clearly. The idea now is to try to get used to having seeing only from the rectanfular frame.