and it was just 3 days that i had burried my grandfather that i found myself again standing at an open grave and throwing shovels down to seperate another loved one from us forever
My Phuppi passed away on 25th, Jan 2007, May Allah bless her soul
she had sugar and heart problems and what not, atleast now her suffering is over, This is what she asked everyone to pray for "Pray that Allah ends my suffering" , and Allah listened to that pray.
Phuppo everyone misses you already
my grandfather passed away on 21st Januray 2007.
I could still feel his faint pulse as i held his hand, while others were trying to revive him, and then all of a sudden there was no pulse, his hand was still warm within mine when i had to make the first call to inform others of the loss.
Its never easy calling up someone and telling them what has happened, especially when its your mother or aunt miles away and you have to inform them that their father has left us for ever,
and then past 2 days have been a blur, so many ppl in the house, chaos, ppl crying and then the funeral itself , the time when you have to lay them in the grave and then they close it up and you just stand there and feel how utterly helpless a human being is.
After returning from the gravyard , i went to his empty room, and just sat there, and my eldest khala came and asked , "chorr aye" , and thats when i lost it, and i cried and i cried i dont know for how long ...
i will miss him, everyday when i go downstairs to leave for office , i will pass by his now empty room, everynight when i will come back, there wont be anyone still awake in his bed waiting for me to return, no one will call me to ask me where i was and when i would be coming back if i ever ran late at nights.
oh i will miss him.... i will
alone am i ? know no
on memories my life now grow
on the same road i still remain
this path was mine now feels strange
which never fades so black is this night
somewhere on the way i lost my sight
a destination was something i never had
this journey i took for that im glad
i was complete if but for a while
a million lives for her just one smile
alone am i? no no
