sync loss

being back in Lahore waznt much as i imagined it would be. i feel misplaced , out of sync. totally out of working phase, just doing it because i have to, i dont think i have slacked this much in all these past year in my working career, student life was another matter.

im ignoring phone calls in the morning from work or anywhere else and just turn over and try to sleep again or doze off for a couple of more mins, past 2 days ive been going to lunch after waking up, showering and getting ready, then to a coffee shop and after that around 4 , 4:30 i grace office with my presence. even if my manager calls me in the morning i dont pick it up and after like 30 mins or so i check emails through my phone to see if its anythingy important and then i call him back. This phone is useful in this capacity that it allows me to check my work mails.

and after im in office , i reply to few mails i deem requiring immediate response or simple response and then i phase out and then i go home when i think it late enough so no one will bother with me when i get home and i would be able to close myself up in my room upstairs.

finally managed to knock some sense into my geezer to stay working , had a to tweak alot of things in the thermostat and put up extra protection so that wind dont blow out the pilot. Thanks to gas-shedding i had to choose between warm water or warm room, figured i can always sleep with the socks on to keep the feet warm, thus warm water it is. This geezer is dedicated to my washroom only, everyone says i dont take a bath but i sterilize , i even need hot water in summers to take a bath in.

my hair are still refusing to rise up to the occasion no matter how much hair gel i apply they just remain as they are tiny half inch pointy things. or perhaps they are nearing an inch now cant say for sure how much they grow in 5 days, i just hope they would be somethingy better soon.

its been raining in all over the country but sadly there was no rain in Lahore today, i rather like the cold drizzle going on and on, thats why i love uk in winters when my cousins over there are cursing the day im enjoying walking in the rain, sadly cant walk here in rain as there is general shortage of footpaths. And somehow i am not feeling like walking in the rain no more, just sitting and watching it is fine for now.

and i swear this headache is there constantly since after the headache, asprins at night are a necessity if i need to place my head down in comfort.

gave my xbox 360 for repair once again yesterday, i havent been able to even play halo 3 and it was launched in september, and like Hemlock gifted me the collectors edition of it. its still packed placed on my bedside table, havent even opened it even though i bugged her to buy it the day it launched.

havent been to bowling yet either, even when there came a time when we used to go almost each day for weeks, dont have that company anymore, dont feel like going there and dont have the company either, 2 of them just got married in last week. One im sure will be needing permission to go to office soon by the way he was dancing on his wifes "requests" at Valima, poor sucker. The other im not sure, have yet to meet the bhabi on a less formal gathering.

this i think should be enough bakwas for now, already longer than any post ive written in a long time.

Here is to life...

Update: After 3 hours of thunder we have rain, and wow what heavy rain it is. i think im going out to catch a cold..