Wednesday, May 23, 2007

yabber

So far , too bad. An extremly worse start of a day where nothingy seems to be going fine work wise. Total chaos so far. I need a break , a long one, not just a weekend , that wont be enough to sustain me for long.

im lost these days, i dont know what im doing , work is just a distraction which keeps me occupied from totaly screwing up my brain. i have no idea what im aiming for right now, i started preparing for giving my PMP next month, have not been studying lately, i guess i would have to postpone the exam now, i wont be ready in 7 days in anycase.

the customer front if killing me as well, im in a meeting every day now for hours, yesterday after attending another 3 hours one, i came to office worked a little and called it a day and went home at 5 and slept , woke up at 8 to find 8 texts and 20 missed calls, and then i slept again rather forced myself to sleep at 12, closed the eyes and tried to atleast.

and im once again having dreams these nights, its been long since i have stopped remembering my dreams, as in what was in the dream but i remember what the dream made me feel. past few nights its all confusion, like the dreams dont make sense, i have had some which left me scared or happy or sad, but confused is new. something just dont make sense. Half the time i wake up disoriented as to where i am and all that and it takes me time to really come to terms with surroundings. Its pretty discomforting a feeling to have, specially right after waking up.

The waking up usually happen at odd times throughout the night, and then after a while i drift again in another tired sleep, only to wake up again a while later. Last night i woke up 5 times in a period of 10 mins , each time it felt as if i was asleep for hours, only when i saw the clock on the wall was when it was revealed that its just few mins from the last time i sat up.

its almost 3 now, ive been writing this post over the past 4 hours, in the middle or work now and then, have another meeting in an hours time. i dont think i have anything else to write more about at the moment , so i will close this post at this time, let me check where be my lunch

9 comments:

M said...

Lend me some of ur sleep dude!

Bin sleeping for 4 hrs everyday since past couple a days- ok count in the 20-25min forced sessions arnd mid-mornings.

i shud *yaawnns* be well asleep by now too... yawning lyk crazy, but im not Interested in it these days.

Its simply too boring.

M said...

*yaawwwnnsS*


Oops.

mE said...

then sleep, its almost 1am at your side aint it ?

M said...

1:35 buddy..

Anonymous said...

I think u need a vacation!! lataah.

Anonymous said...

awww...buddyyy...u do need a vacation, u ll make urslef sick this way...it's insane....

Anonymous said...

We all need a vacation to make us happy and healthy. Lol. But sleep well, cos if you won't sleep, you'll wither away.
falsaqueen

*Dulce* said...

seems like someone is working waayyy tooo much. you should really lessen your work load at work.

mE said...

vacation, wish i could.

the last proper vacation vacation was i believe in year 2005. i didnt take any of my casual leaves last year, so far it dosent look like i can take any in upcoming few months , atleast not till aug,